By: Brandon Hodges

Brandon Hodges — Thu, 11 Feb 2010 04:18:10 +0000

In my sober state of mind I have a natural problem with understanding along with a disorder of not being able to pay attention and process. Therefore I am keeping a chart with a comparison of my brains ability to think while sober and the ability to think while using and THC. In this self study I am hoping to gain the attention of authority over me to realize perhaps that using these drugs will no doubt help me throughout a day to day basis to learn how we can use these drugs into a medicine that will help me along with people like me to live a life with an easier and more understanding concept of learning and gaining knowledge and also being able to control attention. I don’t believe I have a problem or an addiction, my only addiction is to gain wisdom and understand everything at ease. I have been diagnosed several times at which each time I was prescribed numerous amounts of different medications none at which were effective nor helpful to my daily problems. If it is illegal for me to use something that allows me too understand and learn more effectively then the laws of this nation are stalling societies ability to progress. I understand that each and every living personality is different and my own views are completely my own personal opinion. But if I can help myself in such a situation I honestly believe that this study is perhaps a great example of a genuine solution to allot of this nations medicinal misunderstandings. I live in Texas where medical marijuana is not legal, therefore I have to break a law to help myself. Please understand that this is without a doubt unfair and appalling. To keep an American individual from being able to progress and succeed is completely an example of our governments misunderstandings of what is right for an American citizen. I do not believe I am a drug abuser I simply use these drugs to help face my daily misunderstanding, attention disorder and confusion. I never made good grades in school in fact I finished close to last in my grade, I could never process information like I can now. I would have never been able to even write a decent argument or statement like I can now, this being a perfect example. I have always had potential but could never expose this potential until I discovered the helpful and enlightening effects of these drugs. It was like a spark of wisdom. My brain started functioning in amazing ways. How can these drugs be bad for me if I am so much smarter and completely more interested in learning everything that I can now. Not a day goes by without me fearing that my freedom could be taken away from me just because I am using a helpful learning tool. I wish I would have used these drugs in high school and on into college honestly because I would have succeeded so much more then I have up to this point. I can write anything and learn anything more then I ever thought I would have. I can apply myself so much more, I can understand any subject that is given to me. With these drugs I will be able to further my success and achieve any career. I am certain, because these drugs allow me too learn the building blocks of anything, whether it is understanding the process in achieving leadership or any other process that allows you too succeed. It is a sad disappointing truth that I have to fear for my freedom because of my use while I am simply only progressing in wisdom and knowledge. I use to drink and party constantly because I didn’t know much about life and what’s right or wrong. I didn’t understand the import of knowledge until started to use these drugs. I no longer drink, for the most part I read and try to learn everything I can. Yes I can learn without these drugs, but it is nowhere near as easy to learn as it is while using these drugs. I am able to process information and understand at a remarkable rate. I observe everything at its deepest depth. Ultimately I can understand anything much greater on these drugs rather then being confused or aggravated when I am in a sober state of mind. I eat healthy foods and live a happy lifestyle I believe in health and taking care of oneself. I treat women with the utmost respect and take the time too understand everyone as they are. I don’t steal and the only lies I tell would be lies that doesn’t hurt people, only small lies that may help a stressful or troubled situation. I seem to have matured so much more by using these drugs. I go out of my way to make sure I always make right decisions. The only wrong decision that you will see from me in your own eyes would be your judgmental views on mind altering substances, this is exactly why I believe we should look at this with respect for each other. Please understand that I am merely reaching out for help. These drugs are not bad nor a problem for me. For me they are wonderful tools for gaining knowledge. I do understand that using drugs can cause many side effects and can potentially cause damage or harm to oneself or others. This is why this needs to be looked at with seriousness. If there is way to contract a medicine that is safe and just as effective for me to gain the wisdom I seek then this would be a wonderful breakthrough not just for me but people alike. Anyone that assumes that I have a problem is without a doubt close minded and selfish. If people assume that I am crazy or out of my mind then I cannot trust them and therefore will not ever believe that they will be a decent understanding compassionate caring person. You cannot trust someone who thinks that you are crazy. Anyone that assumes I need rehabilitation is certainly simple-minded and uncaring about the importance of this situation, therefore they are wrong no matter how right they think they may be. The only thing wrong with this situation is the fact that our government has more control of our minds then we are taught to think. And what is right is the freedom too be able to find solutions to each and every American citizens daily problems. The only rehabilitation I need is rehabilitation from the laws of this country themselves, because these anti-drug laws are the worst thing for me in my situation. If I were to be kept from using these drugs, that is allot like putting me into a mental prison away from freedom of learning. I wish to pursue a career in my life to help others and ease life’s daily stress and confusion that either lead to depression, suicide or violence. But how can I get a decent job when I have to take drug test that would without a doubt show me to be positive for THC. I am not a lazy person nor am I anti social. I have a will to be great. I was so unaware of the importance of knowledge up until now. An example, I cannot get back into school and perhaps achieve a degree to further my career because I wasted my grants and loans and now have to pay back the funds before I can even get in school simply because I was so unaware of the importance of things. All I can do at this moment is try and find a low paying job and once again stall my success. I would have too work this job for months until I would even be close to paying back the funds. Now why in the world would anyone see this as being fair? Yes I made mistakes and it is completely my fault, but I assure you it wouldn’t of never been this way had I discovered the use of these drugs before hand. Life can be unfair at times but if there are simple solutions to completely discard these unfair situations then we as American people should take serious action. I am not trying to say marijuana should be legal for everyone. Because it is true that it is not for everyone. But for someone in my situation it almost seems like the only right thing to do. I have no serious illnesses and I wake up each day ready too progress in life. I read and learn everything I can to understand more and more about life. I may seem to be a slacker but truth is I dislike sleeping because I am wasting time out of my life to learn. But I am also smart enough to know that without rest your body wears down, now if only we can find ways to learn in our sleep. To me as a living creation of life I simply follow my heart and learn what to follow by using my brain. I believe in true love and along side love it is wisdom, together they are best gifts you could ever have. Out of everything I learn there is a wall that is keeping me from exposing my abilities and it is these anti-drug laws. I know exactly what needs to be done to help me. I only may look like a slacker because I sit at my home waiting for better days, I would much rather be in school on my way to success rather then sitting here but I cant. I am not an angry person at all but I am honestly irritated at how unfair this situation is. What is wrong with going to school while using THC? I seem to have no problem driving on THC in fact I am a much better driver because I become more cautious and observant. I am more open to conversation with people and allot more focused with anything.
John F. Kennedy, Lyndon Johnson and Richard Nixon themselves lowered the punishment for possession because they found marijuana not to be harmful as they thought. Please take these statements and understand what could be done to solve these problems. Take a chance on a human being and understand that we just may be living in a country that hold many prisoners of mental slavery, me being a perfect example. I myself without a degree, career or authority have perhaps came up with a solution to a problem that me and others face daily. I don’t use marijuana to escape as allot of people do, I use it to correct my thoughts from the imperfection of my brains construction. I do not use it everyday. Some days I take high blood pressure cough and cold pills and for some reason I haven’t figured out completely yet but the low doses of the Dextromethorphan I take work almost just as similar to the effects I get from marijuana when I am learning. And when I combine the two it only speeds up my thinking much more allowing me too process information and store it quicker, this is why I need the help to figure out what can be done to find a legal solution in this country to construct perhaps a daily pill form medication for my disorder along with whom ever else may find this helpful. It may seem like medicine abuse to the average person. But I am not an average person I have a learning problem or disorder with my sober mind. I know this and can prove this not only by this letter but also keep a chart of progress. If we have to convert the compounds of THC into a legal prescription medicine for me and people like me then lets please do. In conclusion, with every amount of respect. Please do not take the living breathing human being and their personal opinion for granted. Rather you agree or not, opinions do matter. You must take the time to understand from their point of view and if their opinion is wrong then you will know eventually if not at that instance. The most important thing for me is knowing as much as I can about Life and it’s true meanings. I have studied on my own will without any further college education into Archaeology, Anthropology, Biology, Technology, Psychology, Cosmology, Anatomy and Physiology, some Chemistry, studies into Psychoactive and Psychedelic drugs along side any drugs and their positive and negative side effects, religion, Quantum Physics along with just about any form of science that drew interest, conspiracy theory’s, skepticism, American and World history, US government and state laws, world orders, along with any other study that would thus bring me too more understanding about our rights, beliefs, how we perceive reality and the living beings use of the mind and the minds ability too imagine, adapt to life’s many miracles, along with the freedom of the mind and the use of the minds powers and natural given instincts. I without a doubt honestly believe from what I have learned that my opinion matters on an enormous scale.

By: Kristen

Kristen — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 20:48:37 +0000

How do I join? What are meeting times and where? I feel very strongly about this issue and would love to get involved

By: Jennifer Elmas

Jennifer Elmas — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 20:43:52 +0000

I am a student at the University of St.Thomas, and was told that you might be able to help me with my project about the racial discrimination in the justice system. If so, please contact me via email or telephone # 8327669296. I would really appreciate your help and it would be extremely beneficial for my project.

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